Bottom

My compassion is broken now. My will is eroded, and my desire stolen and it makes me feel ugly. I’m on my knees and burning. My piss and moans are the fuel that set my head on fire. So smell my soul burning. I’m broken, looking up to see the […]

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Forty-Six & 2

My shadow’sShedding skin andI’ve been pickingScabs again.I’m downDigging throughMy old musclesLooking for a clue. I’ve been crawling on my bellyClearing out what could’ve been.I’ve been wallowing in my own confusedAnd insecure delusionsFor a piece to cross me overOr a word to guide me in.I wanna feel the changes coming down.I […]

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Part Of Me

I know you wellYou are a part of meI know you better than I know myselfI know you bestBetter than anyoneI know you better than I know myself You don’t judgeYou can’t speakYou can’t leaveYou can’t hurt meYou’re just here for me to use I know you bestBetter than one […]

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Opiate

Choices always were a problem for youWhat you need is someone strong to guide youDeaf and blind and dumb and born to followWhat you need is someone strong to guide youLike meLike me If you want to get your sould to heavenTrust in meDon’t judge or questionYou are broken nowBut […]

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Prison Sex

It took so long to remember just what happened. I was so young and vestal then, you know it hurt me, but I’m breathing so I guess I’m still alive even if signs seem to tell me otherwise. I’ve got my hands bound, my head down , my eyes closed, […]

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Parabola

We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment,We are choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay insideThis holy reality, this holy experience.Choosing to be here in This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone inThis body, this body […]

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Parabol

So familiar and overwhelmingly warmThis one, this form I hold now.Embracing you, this reality here,This one, this form I hold now, soWide eyed and hopeful.Wide eyed and hopefully wild. We barely remember what came before this precious moment,Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside…This body holding me, […]

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Intolerance

I don’t want to be hostile. I don’t want to be dismal. But I don’t want to rot in an apathetic existence either. See I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I want to have faith to put away the dagger. But you lie, cheat, and […]

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nema

Some say the end is near.Some say we’ll see armageddon soon.I certainly hope we will.I sure could use a vacation from this Bullshit three ring circus sideshow ofFreaks Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LAThe only way to fix it is to flush it all away.Any fucking time. […]

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Reflection

I have come curiously close to the end, downBeneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole,Defeated, I concede andMove closerI may find comfort hereI may find peace within the emptinessHow pitiful It’s calling me… And in my darkest moment, fetal and weepingThe moon tells me a secret – my confidantAs full and bright […]

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Lateralis

Black then white are all I see in my infancy.red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.lets me see.As below, so above and beyond, I imaginedrawn beyond the lines of reason.Push the envelope. Watch it bend. Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.Withering my […]

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Faaip De Oiad

"I, I don’t have a whole lot of time. Um, OK, I’m a former employee of Area 51. I, I was let go on a medical discharge about a week ago and, and… [chokes] I’ve kind of been running across the country. Damn, I don’t know where to start, they’re, […]

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Stinkfist

Something has to change. Un-deniable dilemma. Boredom’s not a burdenAnyone should bear. Constant over stimulation numbs me Just, not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I said, I don’t want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I’m alive. Finger deep within the borderline. […]

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